Brevity

I read Brevity in its entirety. Then i read some past issues in their entirety. I really dig this magazine. My favorite short to date is "Studies for a drawing in red." I love the color of the piece (scuz the pun). I can see the little boy sitting on the back porch waiting for the hummingbirds. I laughed out loud at "It's Valentines day, you ass wipe." However, i don't know what it means.
I love when i read something and i get to the end and feel fulfilled. For many this is because there is closure or because it had a nice outcome. For me, i love things for the unanswered. I find this to be difficult. I want to write and simply just let people take it for what it is. I go back to the Sam Shepard quote: "Do you go to a rolling stones concert and ask 'what does it mean?'"
I don't care what A. Papatya Bucak (such a writerly name) means in his/her story. I love that i feel red when i read it. I love that in a few short lines i can go 'aww', laugh, and stare at my wrists as i imagine them 'run(ning).'
So many times people ask me what my poems mean. Especially my mother. Is this about me? Hell no it's not about you. Where in the world would you get that? But then i look at it, really dissect each line, and yeah it is kind of about her. Everything i write is usually about my life. In one screwed up way or another. So yeah, mom is in my life; yeah, she's in the poem.
I get that feel when i read other peoples work. There is something just under the surface that i do not understand. I'm okay with that. I like looking at things through others goggles.
Back to red. I have the jumbled emotional attachment to the line "Shall I paint my nails, dye my hair, rouge my cheeks, shroud myself in my living room curtains—red red red?" I want to say this is the point of the piece. I also want to say that i don't get it in the way it is meant. I have asked these questions. Well not exactly, i'm not that clever, but i have had these meanderings when evaluating my own physical failings.
Isn't it wonderful? This whole learning about life by listening to life.